Clarify is important????

It is clarify important to a person i hurt before??? This starting on this few days, suddenly this person keep on apprear in my mind. He been treat me very good before. He also very carring bout my daily activities and my daily nutrition. He just like my baby seater. If he noe im unhappy, he wil try to talk smtg to let me forget my unhappy. But dun noe why at the time i just dunno how to appreciate his goodness. Just feel like he was to busy body and wanna disturd my actual life. At the time, he din mention to me that he like me or we just a fren status. But i can feel like the way he treat me is already over a fren limit. I pretend dun wan ask him an just accept his goodness. This unclarify relation is keep on going until someday i feel very tired. This tiredness is came from my new job. I just changing a new job last few month. This job making me very unhappy and stress. Beside the stress from work i do received the stress from myself. In my mind suddenly thinking wanna stop this unclarify relation, coz im tired and lazy to guess his thinking. On this relation i cant catch up what is thinking in his mind. I feel like he very strangers for me coz he seldom talk bout himself and quite when we meet....but in msg he can asking me a lots of question. Im tired evertime need to catch up his mind. Then i choose end it up. Coz i wan to concentrate myself on work. First i choose dun wan reply his msg, and is not works. Just get more trouble and make him more worried about anything happen to me. Then 2nd time, i choose make a story to make him think im a bad girl and like playful around. An this time is work. He was very angry with me oredy, i still remember tat time i was holiday at melaka. His last msg making me no mood to enjoy my holiday....(bad day)
Actually i wrote this not wan any forgiveness from him. I just wanna told him that, this has been keeping in my heart almost more thn one month. This one month im not happy coz i feel like oweing him smtg. Until now i still very unhappy with my current work. That's why i choose to go s'pore. Sorry to get him in trouble last time. Im not a good person in handling this kind relation. I just wanna release it out the knot in my heart.